It is my belief that once in your life time-at least once- you are obliged to leave some people behind you for your whole life, maybe it is your choice or maybe it is not, but the matter is still the same. I am sure one of those who read this were obliged to leave behind their imaginary friend, the music/movie idol they were in love with ( i bet it was either Kurt Cobain or Leonardo di caprio that is new to everyone, there are few people who will actually act as themselves, and those who ) and eventually you had to let go of your sweet 16 flirt. What happens though when you realise that you actually made the right choice or that circumstances/faith did the right thing???Recently i had to let go of some amazing people. I never regret letting them behind...i miss them, but i never regret it.... The question that pops into your mind and honestly bugs you and you think your head is going to explode ( especially if you are a sentimental person) is what could i have done that would make me not feel this way??Should i have spent more time with them??Should i have been more generous with them???Should i have drunk more beer with them??? I will tell you, nothing.You did your best, now get over it. And also, when you leave behind someone that was very special to you, or you thought was very special to you, most of the time you were wrong. In an environment that is new to everyone there are a little people who act as them selves and those who dont, will do when drunk , and it's then that you see what you are missing is really nothing....So for a moment i felt like i was missing some of the greatest people i have met in my life, and those i miss.....But when earlier-few months ago- i was feeling like i was missing someone important to me....i realise now that i was wrong.He gave me nothing as a person.I thank him for making me smarter to be able to see what a ass he was, how he was never himself and how manipulated one can be when really one is just oneself. So thank those for making you brighter and not smarter, wiser and not drunk (wise-when drunk counts as wiser) thank those who have been there for you, thank everybody for giving you experiences and screw the rest.It's all sentimental shit..........fuck them!fuck them all!!!!!! and if you have any questions or feel like this sometimes, i'm sure i can give you some help! Ciao ragazzi!
